I feel as if in this past year I’ve lost a lot of respect for myself.
Which to be frank, is absolutely ridiculous, being that I’m an incredible person.
I’m strong, I’m smart, I’m lost, I’m at the end of this road.
Do I go left or right? I don’t know, but whichever way I go, I yearn to learn more about the person I am, and moving on from the person I was. These past few months have truly showed me that not only I, but everyone my age is going to be going through major changes. So it’s okay to be a little worried, this is a big time in our lives.
School, work, traveling the world, whatever it is it’s new.
and holy crap is it scary.
I want to find myself, not to sound like a hippie or anything but like really find the inner me. I want to reach places in my mind I never knew about, I want to be able to forgive, relax and move on. I yearn for a better year, to become more of an optimist, to focus on my writing more. I yearn for better, maybe not perfect but better.
(I’m jammin’ to trap music right now, check it out, it’s kind of awesome)