Brain Matter

A simple idea is formed in my mind every few seconds, I don’t know where they come from, I usually don’t know where they intend to go, yet I appreciate every one so deeply. My mind sometimes feels like a busy New York street, buzzing and beeping! An awful thing here a delightful thing there, an infinite amount of action and not enough time to see it all happen piece by piece.

I kick myself from time to time because I do not sit down and jot anything down, all those thoughts wasted.. erased. So long New York, you talented state, I waste you away and I cannot give you one good reason why, this life is throwing everything at me and I think I have nothing. That’s wrong, I have my writing, my knitting, and a cute little puppy. I find comfort in the negative, again, not sure as to why. Forgetting there are things in my life to be proud of, sure I didn’t send a robot to the moon, or write the latest pop break up song. Yet by simply being me, by simply being here, that is enough to be thankful for. Hope is only a tiny little person walking down Bleecker Street, and one thought will only get ya so far. So here’s to you, you lazy shmuck, don’t forget to live the life you always said you would. There are people out there who are counting on you to fail, for their own feeble minds are ready to dine on your woes.

**Please share feedback, I’m having conflicting thoughts on this one. Thanks!


Yet Another Challenge!

This past weekend I learned to knit, nothing fancy, just very basic knitting. I’m no professional at it of course, but I’m slowly grasping the concept and I’m really  starting to enjoy it!

So here’s my plan, I’m going to start knitting scarfs until I can get it all right without ending up with a million extra stitches. Once I get that, I’ll learn new stitches and how to make things such as blankets, and maybe even socks!

I’m really excited to start challenging myself so soon with something I’ve come to enjoy very quickly.

Any websites that could be helpful? Do you knit, if so, what’s your favorite stitch?

This One is for You

This blog post is completely fiction, but I hope it helps you.

My name is Steven, I’m 14 years old and I hate my parents. I hate my parents because I never get what I want. Last week I asked if I could stay at my friend’s house until 8 and my mom said no and picked me up at 7! I told my parents I wanted a pot roast for dinner and my mom said “That takes too long, I’m just going to make home-made pizza for dinner tonight.” My life is so unfair, sometimes I wish I was never born.

My name is Lia and I’m 17, I was raped and I got pregnant. My parents don’t believe me. I’m not 4 months pregnant, homeless, and scared. I asked my boyfriend if I could stay with him for a while, but he thinks I cheated on him and am now pregnant with someone else’s child. I don’t go to school anymore because I’m ashamed of myself. I know that being raped wasn’t my fault, but why doesn’t anyone else think so either?

My name is Kat and 16.  I’m a straight A student, President of the Senior Class, Aspiring Lawyer, and my parents pride and joy. Everyone likes me and wants to be my friend. My life seems perfect but there’s just one thing: I’m a lesbian. I feel like I can’t tell anyone because everyone will hate me and all my hard work will mean nothing. I feel like I’m not living because I’m not being who I really am.

My name is Zack and I’m 22. I have a wife, 2 kids and 1 dog. I make enough money to keep my family happy and I love my job. It’s taken years to get to this point but I’m glad I finally made it. I couldn’t be happier with my life right now.

My name is Mandy and I’m 91, I’ve lived my life and I’ve watched my kids grow up, it’s been a rough life, but it was all worth it. I’m old, and I can’t do much, but I’m happy with what I’ve done with my life. I’ve changed lives, and inspired many people. In this very moment almost everything is perfect, the one thing missing is my husband Mac, he died 1 year ago and boy do I miss him. His love was what made my world go round. Now that he’s gone.. well… life just isn’t the same anymore.


Everyone’s story is different, what’s yours?




Who Doesn’t Love Cookie Dough?

I wouldn’t usually think to do something like this but hey why not give it a try. So let’s get started. Our band is going to Nashville this year! The trip is in April so that gives me a good amount of time to come up with $600 dollars. We’re doing our last fundraiser of the year and I want to make sure I announce it as much as I can. We’re selling cookie dough! Who doesn’t love that? Here’s the details you’d probably want to know if you are interested.

  • It’s $15 for every purchase of cookie dough.
  • Each tub makes 48 cookies (so the paper says I don’t know that for sure)
  • We’re selling Chocolate Chunk, Walnut Chocolate Chunk, White Chocolate Macadamia Nut, Oatmeal Raisin, Reese’s (like the candy) Peanut Butter Cup, and M&M’s
  • Deadline for the money is November 14th
  • Delivery Deadline: TBA
  • All checks should be payable to Nathan Hale H.S Music

So that’s the important stuff. This would be a great purchase especially for thanksgiving, Christmas, or just something fun to do with the family. If you have any questions or are interested in making a purchase contact me by commenting or any other way you know how.

Help me go to Nashville!



You’re beautiful

Stylish clothes, perfect hair, flat stomach, busty chest, nice legs. These are the things us “average girls” dream to have. We buy all the products that Hayden Panettiere promotes on TV, and whatever says it will make you looks beautiful fast. People spend hundreds (if not thousands) of dollars on facials, manicure, and waxing unwanted hair. 

But why do we do this? Who says that we need to look this way? Is it because of pictures like this, and gorgeous celebrities all over the place that make us feel like we have to do everything we can to look pretty like these girls?

I’ve been trying to figure out all these answers for a while now and I just can’t figure it out! I’m no beauty queen but I’m definitely no Nanny Mcphee, I’ve been teased about my “imperfections” and I’ve been called ugly and gross, mainly by the girls who were born with fine hair and no curves. I really let those comments affect me and for a long time I wasn’t happy with who I was. I didn’t think I was pretty enough to be popular and it made my confidence and self-esteem spiral down the drain. I was miserable and I hated looking in mirrors, I didn’t smile because I felt like people would judge my teeth or my horrid laugh, but as I’ve gotten older the comments have gone away and I’ve fallen in love with my looks, I’m happy with  who I am and if someone calls me ugly I assume it’s just because they are jealous of my natural good looks!

So don’t let those pretty celebrities with all their make-up make you feel ugly or self conscious, because you’re beautiful, and so are they. It’s all just an image, but if we could all just accept our beauty and keep it simple, maybe then no girl (or boys) would have to worry about being called ugly or fat.We could all just be happy with ourselves and worry about more important things. Like curing cancer or ending world hunger. 


Let’s try something.

Okay so one time I was browsing my favorite author’s (Lisa Gardner) website, and she had this really cool thing.

It’s called “Kill a Friend Maim Sweepstakes” you can nominate someone and then she will pick a name and kill them off in her book. Cool right?

Well I’ve got an idea somewhat like that but a little different.

If you comment someones name here you can kill them off, they could be the bad guy, or they could be the one who falls in love, or the one who gets the crappy end of the deal.

Write a comment on this page with the first (and last name I guess) and then tell me what you’d like to happen to them, and why, if it’s as simple as you’d want to see your friend’s name in a book because it’s cool or if you dislike this person.

Obviously if you feel like someone you know will see this and you don’t want to know that you nominated them then send me an email at with the name, what you want, and why.

I think this could be a lot of fun, so feel free to help and pass this along to your friends too, maybe they’ll put your name in too!


To write love on her arms.

“To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide.  TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.” That is their mission statement.

What is To Write Love on Her Arms?

To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.

So, why the heck am I writing about this? A friend of mine killed herself on Christmas and she was a very good friend. I decided a while ago I wanted to do something to prevent this from happening, and unfortunately I know I can’t prevent everyone from killing themselves or being depressed. But I’ll do what I can.

On the right of the screen is a widget for social vibe supporting the cause TWLOHA, please click on it and do an activity or two to help the cause and then please promote it on Facebook, Twitter, your own blog whatever.

Every act of kindness has to start somewhere.