Simple Misunderstandings

Understand this and only this.
There is no end to the madness.
Whenever it feels like it may be over
The second you feel like you can breathe
Those are the moments you should fear the most.
No one knows why this is.
And honestly there is no reason to question it.
When you begin to question the things that should remain unknown
You begin to flirt with death.
Situations like that never end well my dear.
I know many things you’ll never care about.
I know many things none of you may never know about.
You notice me when you see me.
But when you notice me it’s only what you can see with those
Shallow eyes.
Never will you see me for what I was intended to be.
Not until I rip this mask from my face, and show you all the demons inside of me.
Even then, when I have everything exposed before you
You still just will not see me.
Instead you’ll take a quick peek into yourself and see all the imperfections
The ones you never quite wanted to believe.
I will ruin you, everything you ever loved about yourself
And what for?
Just so you can hear about my poor lost soul?


This Love is No Good

Take a line from a song that you love or connect with. Now forget the song, and turn that line into the title or inspiration for your post.

Today I knew I wanted to write, but I just wasn’t sure what I was going to write about. I was going to write any word that came into my head and then I saw this little magic button that said “Inspire me!” and I got really excited so I clicked the button and it gave me the idea above so here we go:

In September I went through my first major break-up, it was the whole super sad, everything sucks, what do I do now kind of thing which was to be expected when you were with that same person since Freshman year

I was really pissed off at him then, but now I think it’s the best thing we could have done. We’re even attempting to be friends… well.. not really but we’re talking which is more than I could have said a month ago.

This song and post have nothing to do with him though, but the point of that small story was to say that I never really learned how to “date” during my high school career. I didn’t go out with boys to the movies or dinner whatever you even do when you go out on dates throughout high school.

That being said, since September dating has been crazy weird.

At first I was excited, I was excited for someone new, with new habits, a different sense of humor, new friends, just a whole new person.

Then I started realizing that every boy my age is psychotic.

And I’m not joking, and it’s not just guys either! People my age are looking for all sorts of commitment. I know I shouldn’t really talk being that I just told you I dated my first boyfriend for 3 years… but that was different, my initial intention was never forever with him. My intentions still aren’t forever! But the boys I’ve been meeting are all commitment.

How old am I? I’m 18 years old

Have I even graduated high school yet? No

Do you think I’m ready to settle down forever? Absolutely not!

I was attempting to date because I just wanted to meet some new people, whatever. But after the rodeo I’ve been through with this whole “He gets hooked way before I’ve even casted” I’m hanging up my hat and calling it quits for now.

Dating is stupid for people my age because people my age let dating consume them. They think they need a boyfriend or a girlfriend, like they need that sense of romance in their life. NEWSFLASH!! It would be nice to have sure, but you don’t need to be in a relationship! You have friends, and if you’re already in a relationship good for you but if you’re not don’t worry about it. Who cares, live your life and figure out who you are.


The song I based this post on: